Menopause has the potential to trigger our latent insanity on
occasion, especially as the heat rises, our emotions escalate, and
everything punches holes in the carefully designed tapestry we call our
life plan! Although this expression is potentially freeing, sometimes we
can feel truly incapacitated by the intensity of the energy propelling
us out of control!
"Courage in women is often mistaken for
insanity," is one of my favorite quotes from a movie about the
suffragettes. When we are young, our courage is blanketed by innocence
and vibrates with infallibility. This tone evolves into a very different
quality as we accumulate years, after moving first through sensuality,
arrogance, nurturance, humility, fear, and finally, true courage.
Ruthless
self-examination for better or worse, helps us to develop acceptance
and compassion for all that we are. Curiosity and correct interpretation
of the answers tenures truth in our educational mission. More, we must
actually ask provocative questions, evoking this truth from our
innermost voice, our soul
Is there any part of your brain that
functions differently (notice how it's not about bad or good) now as a
result of age changes and menopause? Are you more likely to expose
yourself, showing your vulnerability now more than you were before? What
would you do if you never had another romantic relationship again in
your life? Are you happy in your relationship or happily alone? Is your
intuition heightened; are you more sensitive to energy?
Exploring
these possibilities, or to answer even one of these questions could stir
much in our old programmed templates for living. Complete with courage
at this stage in our evolution, we have the inner elemental fuel to
bring it all to light, transforming everything we are made of, re-wiring
and creating new neural networks.
Personally, I've asked myself
and my close friends these questions over and over again because I'm
curious about what lies beneath these personas of ours. More important, I
wonder what lies beneath that and I'd like to know how we can re-lay
our foundation without totally destroying the house on top of it.
Now
I know my personal foundation cracks and changes daily with each breath
I take and with every thought I have. I am certain I am rewiring myself
in my sleep, maybe even while awake. I'm certain I will complete my
soul and advance this lifetime. Is this true for everyone though?
is it true for you?
How
would a new romantic partner adjust to these thoughts, these crests and
troughs? Is there enough compassion and surrender in the Universe for
me to exist here, like this, along with the other 6 million menopausal
women in the United States? These are my questions.
One day, in
the last several years, I realized that I may be single the rest of my
life and although fairly uneasy about it at first, I've grown, learned
and become quite enthusiastic about this as a very distinct possibility.
On the other hand, I am not adverse to finding and living with a mate.
He would have to be an open-minded and spiritually special man to
venture into this very rugged terrain.
Since that discovery, I
have hovered around the bush of courage, sometimes hiding behind it and
other times dancing around it. In this moment, I truly embrace being
celibate as a possibility. In fact, I am certain that mature women
worldwide can hold the creative space for all evolutionary processes,
particularly those fearless women who use their creative energy for
nothing but the process of human expansion.
Whatever its past was,
or future consistency may be, our most auspicious and productive state
of being is to courageously embrace who we are in present time, even if
that means temporary insanity. And that's quite a feat, yet there are
ways to manage, to cultivate and entrain this wildly creative energy in
our bodies through visualization, conscious living and breathing, as
well as spiritual intention.
Female Creative Energy Practice I
Transform sexual energy into creative Chi energy by breathing into and focusing on the Ovaries.
Begin by breathing into your ovaries. Rapidly and lightly rub your
palms together placing them over your lower abdominal and ovarian areas.
Feel the warmth created with the breath and hands.
Next,
visualize an oval shape that connects the two ovaries and the cervix,
completely encircling the uterus as well. Feel the energy moving through
and circulating around this "Oval" shape.
Ground the cervix into
the Root Chakra at your tailbone and further, into the center of the
Earth. Allowing anything foreign to release down this grounding
connection. All the stagnant energies will be transmuted by Earth's
fiery core.
Let the creative energy swirl around in the oval while
you pump your perineum gently (squeeze the pelvic floor muscles like a
Kegel). Feel the energy created in the "Oval" moving up through the
spine into the center of your head.
Here it cycles around both
clockwise and counterclockwise, eventually returning back down to the
"Oval." You can also try pooling and circulating this energy into each
chakra along the way as it journeys upward.
Do this both on the
way up to collect energy and the way down to re-fill the spaces with a
higher vibration. Now try the exercise again with your tongue touching
the roof of your mouth behind your top teeth.
